Thursday, May 01, 2008

Happy Birthday Huimin!

It's once again your birthday. Here's your birthday card. Hahaha.

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Thursday, May 01, 2008

Monday, July 30, 2007

That's it. Iam leaving that place soon. The estimated leaving date is somewhere near the end of august this year. To be able to experience death and given a chance to be reborned again, this feeling and experience will definitely stay with me till my death. Never will i be able to forget it. I will be going to another place to be tortured again by monsters, but i don't mind. "Anywhere but here" ; anywhere is better than this current place. The mental and physical abuse will not stooped to a level as low as this. Just like sirius black, the place iam in currently is comparable to Azkaban. There are lots of dementors sucking all the happiness out of us everyday. During the period of stay in Azkaban, I and my comrades were like the living dead everyday. A day is just like a year. The amount of pain and sufferings we had will more or less have an impact on our psychological well-being and it is not something that can be expressed in words. I have changed or rather i have been changed by the dementors. For those who get to leave the demonic place, together we had swore that we will change for the better.

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Monday, July 30, 2007

Friday, June 01, 2007

Little things in life

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Friday, June 01, 2007

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Countdown

You see the timer over there? haha i just installed it. The timer shows the amount of time left before i regain my freedom. Whoo hoo!!! ------.-------- still got freaking 658 days as of now. But never mind, everytime i look at it i feel slightly better. Iam left with 11 more working days on the island. I hope these 11 days will pass by quickly. Once you got sick on that island, you can never expect to recover until you are able to leave that island and never to return there ever again. I still haven't recover from my freaking cough. : (

I went out yesterday to get some stuffs and i happened to pass by a guy holding a tin. He is going around asking for donations. Then the funny thing is i saw one young lady ran past him as he approaches her. lol. Wtf siaa lol. From far, the girl looks sweet and she does not seems like this kind of person to me. From the first glance, i thought she will smile at him and take out her purse and put in a few coins. But i was wrong.lol It was an unpleasant but funny sight. Girls please don't do this. It will scare most of the guys away. lol For your information, I ran faster than her. heheheheheh

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Sunday, May 13, 2007

8 steps to happiness

With the intention to attain
The ultimate, supreme goal
That surpasses even the wish-granting jewel,
May I constantly cherish all living beings

Whenever I associate with others,
May I view myself as the lowest of all:
And with a perfect intention,
May I cherish others as supreme

Examining my mental continuum throughout all my actions,
As soon as a delusion develops
Whereby I or others would act inappropriately,
May I firmly face it and avert it

Whenever I see unfortunate beings
Oppressed by evil and violent suffering,
May I cherish them as if I had found
A rare and precious treasure

Even if someone I have helped
And of whom I had great hopes
Nevertheless harms me without any reason,
May I see him as my holy spiritual guide

When others out of jealousy
Harm me or insult me,
May I take defeat upon myself
And offer them the victory

In short, may i directly and indirectly
Offer help and happiness to all my mothers,
And secretly take upon myself
All their harm and suffering

Furthermore, through all these method practices,
Together with a mind undefiled by stains of conceptions of the eight extremes
And that sees all phenomena as illusory,
May i be released from the bondage of mistaken
appearance and conception.

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Monday, April 30, 2007

Happy Birthday to Huimin

1st May 1990 is ......Huimin's Birthday!! heh

Happy Birthday to you! You are granted one birthday wish. Use it wisely.

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Monday, April 30, 2007

Sunday, April 15, 2007

A Nice Story to Share

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school one of my classmates said: "EEEEW, your mom only has one eye!" I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear. So I confronted her that day and said: " If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings. I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts. Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight. One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbors said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have. "My dearest son, I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. With my love to you, Your mother.” Always tell someone that you love them because you never know what day will be their last.

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Sunday, April 15, 2007